Sorry but it’s another candid blog post from me rather than anything particularly interesting to anyone else to read. I’m really starting to realise that I’m using this blog as an outlet for myself and it doesn’t really matter if anybody else in the whole world reads it at all if I’m honest.
If anyone is reading this then I apologise for the nature of what I’m writing, but I hope you understand that blogging is not all about engaging with other people, it’s also about getting your inner thoughts out into the open so you can explore them better.
I’m really excited about my party and I want people to come along and have a really good time. I managed to get hold of extra stuff people to use for taking photos and I am really looking forward to it. On the other side of the coin I am very concerned about my attitude to food, diet and exercise at the moment.
I’m off out for a meal with my partner tonight. We have not done this for a long time and as we have both been working very long hours it’s going to be really nice to do. But I’m already anxious about the fact that I’m going to be eating a three course meal with him. This has been a real wake-up call for me, and I’m anxious about going out for food my partner because of the volume I might eat in front of him. I think it might be time for me to tell him exactly how I’m feeling, what I’m going through.
So it’s not really a very positive blog post from me here, and it’s not really for anyone else to read. My concerns about ruining a good diet, ruining the hard work I’m doing in my fitness plan and putting more stress on me than is already there, is very concerning.
I think I might have to make an appointment with the doctor to tell him about my concerns. I think I might also have to tell the people at the gym that I am having these issues, because I think they might need to keep an eye me in case I start over exercise and show any warning signs to them.